February 15, 2020

I had a bad dream last night. My brother Maclain's two oldest girls were playing in the "World Series Softball Championship" (is there such a thing?). Many people (tons) were gathered to watch it at a huge stadium (like in pro baseball). The game was almost ready to start.

We had a front-row "couch" seat. I was with my mom and dad and someone else (I can't remember who). Maclain's family was also there. Then the scene changed and I found we were in a big building being used as a "chapel." We had to partake of the sacrament before the "game" started.

A woman asked if she could sit on the couch but I was saving seats for the family using big family photo album books laid on the couch. We had been looking at them while we waited. She said she had a text message at 9 am that morning telling her to bring her son to pass the sacrament. It got quiet so we knew they must be blessing, and passing the sacrament in the back of the room, but we couldn't hear (no sound system).

For some reason, I found myself at the back of the big room where all of the young deacons were. They were dressed in haphazard clothes. One wore his prom vest (colored). I heard one of the deacons say that there was a bad storm coming called, "Worm," and they weren't going to say anything until after passing the sacrament.

But the storm came and everyone from the South that knew about storms got up and left to seek shelter. I stopped one of the deacons leaving and got a cup of water. I asked, "Can I take the sacrament?" It was in a larger plastic cup like you get ketchup or fry sauce in. I hurried and drank it, then went back up to the front of the building. The side window was broken out and rain and wind were coming in. I told my parents on the right and Maclain's family on the left in the pews that we needed to go back to find shelter in the center of the building and to get away from the windows. I felt like the walls there could also fall in and kill people. So as we went out the back with the mass of people they all dispersed, finding places in rooms or out the back which went into an alley. The alley led to many shops/stores/places like an outdoor mall. People were parked like at the back of a business at a strip mall but it seemed like we were still indoors.

We lost Maclain and I was trying to get my mom's attention to follow me. We kept looking and checking in different rooms and stores/shops (like convenience stores). It kind of reminded me of Guangzhou, China with the mazes of shops and stores, but they wouldn't let us stay or they were occupied. The streets became deserted as people found shelter. Dad kept looking and I kept saying we'd be okay even to stay in a shop. Maclain and his family found their own way and I didn't see them again in the dream.

The puppies whining kind of woke me up.

When I went back to sleep I dreamed I was back in the same place but on my own. Mom and dad were somewhere but I wasn't sure where. Marc wandered by and we found a room to stay in. It was getting dark. When we woke up in the morning after the storm the sun was shining. We opened the door and we saw there was destruction. I saw a car with the doors off and backpacks inside. This made me remember that Dad and I had worked on opening secret compartments on his truck before the game started.

Somehow I was connected with a man that I was trying to get help from. I can't remember how I met him. He wasn't very handsome but he had a charming personality, he was a talker and knew a lot of things. He was with me in a room that seemed like a hospital room and somehow convinced me it would be good to improve my life/marriage to kiss him and try some things. We ended up having sex but I kept asking him questions that would interrupt things and he didn't finish. I noticed the door to the room wasn't completely shut. Then someone knocked and came right in. The man put himself still dressed on top of the bedcovers and I was still under them although my shoulders were bare. My mom walked in bringing something to me. She stopped and her face was shocked. The man whispered to me to say nothing because she didn't know anything. She'd never seen him before and she said, "What's going on? Who are you?" She kept talking and going around the room. She eventually cried and the man left out the back of the room with no one noticing.

I felt ashamed, then I felt defensive, then glad that he was gone, then appalled to realize I had broken my covenants with God and Marc. I was going to be excommunicated. I knew it would happen. I was sad and devastated. The door to the room was open and I saw Marc walking by my room holding a baby girl about three years old. She was Hispanic/Native American. He ignored me.

My mom was fixing little kid shoes and adding patriotic or red, white and blue flower bows to them. We were still going to try and get ready for the game. I remember asking mom to shut the door so I wouldn't be seen because I was so ashamed. I was worried my dad would walk by and see me.
End of the dream.

I asked God for the interpretation.
Dear God what is this dream about?
Dear Audrey, This dream is a witness and a warning.

1. The game is the Plan of our Heavenly Father that his Kingdom will come upon the earth. 
2. The "worm" storm is the tribulations that will affect everyone--no one will be unaffected. 
3. The sacrament represents protective covenants and you only had the water. You needed both bread and water to be fully protected.
4. The shelter represented Holy Places of refuge to be hidden sight unseen.
5. The man is the devil in his sneaky, sophistication that seeks your misery, sadness, shame, and downfall by breaking your covenants.
6. Your mom represents all that is good and right. She represents reason, truth, love, wisdom, knowledge, and understanding. She represents your conscience, your desire to do what is right and good in God's sight. She represents love, repentance and doing better, and being better. In her presence the devil had to leave--he couldn't stay in her love and light.
7. The betrayal of sex and sleeping with the devil represents anything that takes you from your family and your eternal covenant to your husband. There is nothing of more worth and of more sadness if it is lost to you.
8. Your glimpse of Marc and a baby represent your marriage and posterity. Losing them will only bring misery to you both and to all you love hereafter.
9. The infidelity and lies represent the way your husband was caught in Satan's traps over and over again and the shame and anguish he feels over his actions. This dream was to let you experience a small taste of his pain and anguish so that you may extend your love to him in true empathy and peace. We love you both and we know you are both in pain. Marc has seen how much he loves, misses and needs you with your absence for three months. You are all in our hands and good will come from this time apart.

We are in all the details of your life. We love you, cherish you and care for you with all our hearts. Do not fear for I am with thee. I will strengthen thee, help thee, and cause thee to stand, Upheld by my righteous omnipotent hand.

Love,
God, Jesus, and Holy Angels of Light

Postscript

I found out that March 9, 2020 there was a full moon, named the "Worm" moon!

WHEN TO SEE THE FULL MOON IN MARCH 2020

February 3, 2020

These are learning experiences to help strengthen you and to help prepare you for future challenges in the same vein of experience. You are learning to recognize TRUTH and speak TRUTH and live TRUTH. You know what is true for you and your body. That is not the same as other's "truth" for their bodies. You must choose yourself. You want your spouse to choose you, but you MUST choose yourself FIRST.

You have chosen Me first so that this communication is occurring right now. This is a mystery and a KEY to mysteries that will unlock further knowledge in due time. As you keep choosing ME first then YOU first you will grow and learn exponentially in power and great glory to help build My Kingdom on the earth.

Keep journaling every morning. Continue to journal with your Women's healing group. Journal with Inner Bonding, it is also a key to help you heal and become connected to me. Keep strengthening your truth muscles to only speak and live My Truth for you.

You are a precious child of mine that is capable of great things through walking in my paths of righteousness and truth. Your example and teachings will lead and guide others to Me. Do not despair or be afraid, for I am with you. I will lead you and guide you and help you to stand.

If you treat yourself as a caretaker--as you would for a sick child with special needs and concerns-- then you would not betray that trust. You would do all you could to follow the guidelines of care and health that they needed. You wouldn't let the circumstances dictate the care. You would plan ahead. You would ask questions beforehand to know what was available. You would be prepared with a backup plan of your own making to have food you could eat. PLUS you know and understand that you DON'T have to eat. You DON'T have to do anything you don't want to or that you aren't comfortable or don't feel right about. Get your backup plans put together for traveling, for staying at others' homes and for your day to day living.

You can be a proactive caretaker for yourself. You are in charge of you, and by doing this you love yourself, serve yourself, and in turn Love and Serve ME, your God. That is what I truly want is for you to take care of yourself. To love my beautiful creation of YOU. You are precious to me and of infinite worth and value. You have done well to come to me for election, care, love, advice, and to feel my love for you at all times, in all ways, and in all places. You are on My path, My way. Keep moving forward with peace and love.
God, Jesus, and Holy Angels of Light.